This Outfit, excluding the purse,  cost me only $39.oo!

It’s Tuesday again, and that means time to go to my WW meeting and see what the dreaded scale says. I mush say losing the first twenty pounds was easy, but I am feeling stuck to push through right now.  I had a huge breakthrough this week and I hope that means I will begin towards that long road of losing this last 20-25 lbs.  What was my breakthrough?

It was that I have been sabotaging myself, sound familiar to anyone?   With this first 20lbs gone,  and seeing the changes in my body and trying on clothes at the thrift store, I had to face a hard truth.  I have wasted a lot of money over the past three years. I planned and purchased a wardrobe that I intended to get me to my goal size, but I wasn’t being realistic.  In my head I saw  myself only getting to a size 6/8,  but now I realize my heart won’t settle for that and I want to return to the 4/6 I was before I succumbed to years of emotional eating. Everyone has their own journey and this has been mine. If my mantra is “I will not let my mother’s legacy be my weight gain”, then I have to be honest and realistic that  means getting to my previous size.  That is what my heart desires more than anything to feel like myself and to love what I see in the mirror.  I know that a 6/8 is not a bad size, it’s just not going to ever feel like the real me.  So, I broke down and cried, apologized to my husband and confessed that I had wasted a lot of money on jackets and even leather and suede blazers that are not going to work for my new body.  God bless him because he didn’t even bat an eye and told me if spending money on a smaller size is what I needed to do that he couldn’t think of a better reason to do so.

Like my wind-swept look? My husband calls my look smoldering… I guess that fits as I was irritated that the wind was whipping my hair around.  

A huge sense of relief washed over me and I now can accept the truth that another 20 pounds means an entire new wardrobe.  So, I will enjoy the ride and the pieces for as long as they fit and then try selling them on ebay as they become too big for my shrinking body.  So, now nothing is in my way and I am ready to forge ahead and really focus on getting this weight down. This really is a mind, body, spirit journey.   Increasing my protein and exercising daily….  Oh yeah, almost forgot my weigh in information…. I lost 2.2 lbs this week!

Gratitude-  I am grateful to my husband for never complaining about my weight gain, and never making me feel less beautiful.  

This dress is such a statement piece and really stands on it’s own,  so no accessories needed! It is sleeveless with a cutout back and stretch so will most likely work with my weight loss and definitely fits the versatile goal of working for several seasons.  

Brown Jacket-thrifted $6.99

Dress- thrifted $6.99

Shoes- Kasper via Burlington Coat Factory $24.99

Purse- Liz Claiborne NY via QVC