Tuesdays are always a day where I get up feeling anxious and rush to the scale first thing after I get up or should I be honest and confess that I go to the bathroom first, can’t weigh in til I make sure to release any possible extra weight…

I then spend my morning running back and forth between the scale making sure that the outfit I chose doesn’t make the number go up…. I think I must weigh myself at least 5 times before I leave for my meeting.  I swear I have no other obsessive compulsions.  This is it, all brought on by facing a scale….Notice I wear leggings on weigh in days. they weigh less than other pants…

Why do I give that darn thing so much power in my life, why can’t I just wake up and let the chips fall where they may instead of obsessing for two hours every Tuesday morning?  This next photo is a close up just to emphasize how windy it was…

I really shouldn’t complain I chose Weight Watchers because I wanted the accountability of weighing in and keeping on top of this. The scary part is that I chose WW because I wanted the accountability for the rest of my lifetime…

I sure hope when I reach that point of just maintaining that I can not be so obsessed with stepping on the scale every morning as my first waking thought is “Well, did I do ok, yesterday?”

I guess after not stepping on a scale for years while I ate emotionally and put on this weight means I have to change something, but I always say “Any thing in excess is not good for you.”

Part of this journey has to be finding the balance and not obsessing over stepping on the scale so many times a day… It is something to aim for later, but for right now it is my security blanket and I am not ready to give it up.

After suffering severe sinus pressure headaches that felt more like migraine’s  Sunday & Monday and the sore throat and fever I now am experiencing, I am not going to my WW meeting.  No worries that will not become a habit.  I actually look forward to my meetings.

My scale says that I gained .4lbs,but then again it was just 4 am and that is never what time I start weighing myself..  Who knows it could make perfect since with eating out, sitting still these past two days and let’s add in PMS and my aching swollen chest… Since I am up, going to post this now and head right back to bed.

The big question is can I eat really well and indulge just a little on Thanksgiving and still have a loss next week.  I’m going to try! I am not giving up stuffing and rolls just this once…  Will let you know next Tuesday on the next Weigh In Day….

Outfit Details

Green Tunic Sweater- thrifted $2.50

Brown leggings- F21 $5.99

Scarf- Kroger (my grocery store) $6.99

Boots- BJ’s  $29.99 by White Mountain

Purse- Thrifted $4.00

That is only about $49.50 for the entire look!

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